January 2024 – Page 2

Epiphany – The Glory and the Light

O God, by the leading of a star, you manifested your only Son
to the peoples of the earth: Lead us, who know you now by faith,
to your presence, where we may see your glory face to face,
through Jesus Christ our Lord,
who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit,
One God, now and forever. Amen.
Preface to Epiphany, Book of Common Prayer

Years ago, I went to Hawaii with a dear friend. She had been given the opportunity to stay at a house right on the beach – a beautiful place to be, especially at night. We would sit out on the lanai late at night sometimes and watch the stars. It was incredible, like nothing I had ever seen before. I don’t think I had ever been anywhere that there wasn’t some form of man-powered light. I read something while we were there about the protests against adding more hotels, restaurants, etc.…which would bring more man-made light to the island (We were staying on the big island, Hawaii). They called it light pollution.

Perhaps you’ve had a similar experience. I imagine there are places especially in the Southwest, here in the States, where you can go out into the desert and never see a man-made light. How glorious that experience is!

We see in the Scriptures how often glory is associated with light.

Isa 60:1 – “Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord has risen upon you. “

Rev. 21:23 – ” And the city has no need of sun or moon to shine on it, for the glory of God gives it light, and its lamp is the Lamb.”

Heb. 1:3 – “He is the radiance of the glory of God and the exact imprint of his nature, and he upholds the universe by the word of his power.”

We cannot plumb the mysteries of these scriptures (and others!) through mere study. Only through revelation will the truth go deep into our souls. Only through the manifestation of Christ to us through the Holy Spirit will we truly enter the story of God and our salvation. I became a Christian in college and had a genuine and devout faith. But ten years later, while attending my first Pastoral Care Ministries conference, I had a life-changing experience. I had faith. I knew God loved me, I knew the place of Christ’s death for me. But the only way I can describe what happened to me at that conference is that I woke up. C.S. Lewis says

It is waking that understands sleep, and not sleep that understands waking
C.S. Lewis, Perelandra

As from a deep sleep I woke to the knowledge that Christ loved and died for me. In French there are two words for knowledge (as there is in Greek): le savoir and la connaissance. The first is related to learning, scholarship… and the latter to an intimate knowledge – knowledge by experience. My knowledge of God moved from knowledge about Him to knowledge of Him. It was epiphany.

Epiphany means manifestation, or revelation. I love this definition: “a sudden manifestation or perception of the essential nature or meaning of something, or an intuitive grasp of reality through a simple or striking event; an illuminating discovery, realization, or disclosure or a revealing scene or moment” (compellingtruth.org).

Isaac Newton had an epiphany through an experience with an apple. The disciples who were with Jesus at the transfiguration had an epiphany. And look at Paul’s epiphany in Acts 9. Christ appeared to him, on his journey to have more Christians killed. Jesus revealed not only his glory, but the egregious sins he had committed against the Church. And he was made blind, in order to see. Every Christian who holds to the Scriptures as the Word of God has been changed as well.

I was having a discussion with a very good friend of mine about when she came to know Christ. And for her, it was very young. In many ways, she never knew a time when she was unaware of God’s love for her. She described sitting in church one day, as a young girl, and listening to the sermon. The children in her Sunday School class were sitting beside her and they were restless and bored. But she took the preacher’s words into her heart and cried out (silently!) – “why aren’t they hearing this”? She was captured not only by the words but by the wooing of Christ to come to Him. For her, this was one of many epiphanies throughout her life.

We had been talking about someone very close to her who had been making difficult and bad choices in her life. And I was thinking how best to pray for her. I was in the process of working on this reflection I thought – Oh Lord – she needs a revelation of You – of Your love for her, of the length to which You went to rescue her. Sometimes that’s the best prayer we can ever pray for others. They might need rescuing from the darkness of this world, or from sickness, or from evil. We may know their needs, but if it comes down to it – the prayer we all need is: “Lord reveal yourself.” Why not take these few weeks of Epiphany and do just that. Dietrick Bonhoeffer wrote in his book Life Together – “Better to speak to God about a brother, than to a brother about God.” (Now context here is a big help – if you’re confused by this, read Life Together!)

Ask God to show you who in your life needs to come present to their loving, gracious God. And then pray – “Lord, may they (along with us) wake up from the kind of slumber that numbs, that defends against love. Lord, let your favor rest on them, your shalom peace which of course is the countenance of your grace, your love.”

I’m so grateful to theologians like Hans Urs Von Balthasar because they give birth to thoughts that I doubt would have come to me on their own. He writes: “Whatever could we say to God if he himself had not taken the first step in communicating and manifesting himself to us in his word, so that we have access to him and fellowship with him? For we have been permitted to glimpse his inner nature, to enter into it, into the inner core of eternal truth; bathed in the light which radiates upon us from God, we ourselves become light and transparent before him.” Von Balthasar

And it’s there that we find ourselves in 2 Corinthians 3:18 – “And we all, with unveiled face, beholding the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from one degree of glory to another. For this comes from the Lord who is the Spirit.”

All glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Ghost! Amen.

As you reflect (no pun intended!) on the revelation of Christ to His people, take a few minutes and listen to this song by Audrey Assad.

Rule of Life

I’ve wanted to write for several days now about a practice I’ve engaged in over the last few years. It’s become a pretty popular exercise, and you’ll find all kinds of information out there on the world wide web! I was probably first exposed to it through using a planner created by Sacred Ordinary Days. The idea goes back to the 6^th century when a monk named Benedict developed it for his monastery. I’m not going to go into much detail here but google it and find what you can, if you’re interested.

What I do want to say is that a rule of life is not a set of resolutions, or a mission statement or a set of rules. It is not a list of things that need to be done; it’s about ways we are called to live. Rule refers to measure not regulation. This past year I sat with the idea for several months, and let it simply emerge out of my relationship with God, and some things He was calling me to.

“It is a commitment to live in a certain way. It is created with prayer and discernment as we consider the way God made us and the unique ways we are invited to partner with God in kingdom building” (Sacred Ordinary Days).

“It helps us to stay connected to God in the present moment by noticing the now – not by adding disciplines to an already busy life but by becoming conscious of God in what we are already doing. Our part is to remain available, to listen, to observe, to act, to be. This enables us to remain spiritually alive – mindful of God’s presence with us” (Northumbria Community).

The rule of life is descriptive not prescriptive. Henri Nouwen said this about it – “it does not prescribe, it invites, it does not force, but guides.”

So that’s a quick view into the idea – and you will find all kinds of different ways to create your rule of life, should you choose to do it. I did not start 2023 with a clear idea of what I wanted here – but a few things directed me toward what I wanted it to do.

…regla, a feminine noun, carries gentle connotations;

a sign post, a railing, something that gives me support

as I move forward in my search for God.

Esther de Waal

The first was this definition by Esther de Waal. – I loved that she refers to it as a feminine noun (whereas I think of mission statements as being more masculine in tone – not bad, just very action oriented!).

I knew I wanted something to measure my intentions by and I loved the picture of a signpost. One of the ways I’m wired is that I’m not a details sort of person; I’m more drawn to the big picture. I’m much more likely to tell you how to get somewhere by giving you landmarks, not mile markers! The relevance here is that I am more drawn to symbols (pictures) than instructions. But that’s not true of all of us is it? We may all approach this idea of a rule of life differently. My only recommendation is that we keep it “being” centered, not “doing” centered.

Secondly, I found what I needed in a word by Alexander Schmemann, as I was reading Of Water and the Spirit during Lent last year. It says it all for me… well maybe not all, as you’ll see in a minute. But this quote by him changed the way I started each day.

…that he may remain faithful to his baptism, living by it, making it always the source and the power of his life, a constant judgment, criterion, inspiration, rule of life.
Alexander Schmemman, Of Water and the Spirit

I will explore this more in our journey through Lent (if you stick around for that). The pastoral schools led by Leanne Payne, were, from her perspective, a school of baptism; a preparation for and an affirmation of our baptisms! And they truly were. In some liturgical traditions, this is what the season of Lent is about: helping prepare converts for baptism (which happens on Easter). And I thought – what a way to approach Lent! To spend those weeks affirming my baptism by asking the question – “how will I live out my baptism today?” I’ve been trying to do that on a regular basis throughout the whole year. But “Into Our Bones” for the season of Lent will pursue this in a very intentional manner.

Last year, sometime around June or July – I felt I had a sense of what God was calling me to do in creating a rule of life. I had been praying and reading – and found a few scriptures that were really relevant to the season I was in. (Some people take one word for the whole year – and it becomes something like a rule of life). I had a few quotes, a prayer, and a few questions. As I approach 2024, I’m finding it easier to formulate something that will serve as a signpost for my journey through the year. I’ll share them here.

Schmemann’s quote on baptism is right up there for me. As I ask the question (daily, weekly??) “how will I live out my baptism today?” I know it will include confession, repentance, forgiveness, joy, death, resurrection! So many things…

I’ve also been led to a Scripture passage for 2024 – 2 Peter 1:3 – His divine power has granted to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through the knowledge of him who called us to his own glory and excellence… (ESV) I know for me I desire to live more fully from Christ’s incarnation in me!

I’ve found a quote that is meaningful to me:

Above all else, trust in the slow work of God.
Pierre Teilhard

And then a prayer – Give me a grace that precedes, follows, guides,
sustains, sanctifies, aids every hour,
that I may not be one moment apart from thee,
but may rely on thy Spirit to supply every thought,
speak in every word, direct every step,
prosper every work, build up every mote of faith,
and give me a desire to show forth thy praise;
testify thy love, advance thy kingdom.
I launch my bark on the unknown waters of this year, with
thee, O Father, as my harbor,
thee, O Son, at my helm,
thee, O Holy Spirit, filling my sails.
The Valley of Vision (a compilation of Puritan Prayers), Arthur Bennett.

A word God gave me at Cedar Springs last year was about how He wanted me to use the years left to me (I know… I’m not that old!) My calling in this season of life is to share the wisdom God has carved out of me (carved into me) through His sanctifying work – whether in joy or sorrow, suffering or peace, absence or presence. Identifying your calling in the season you are in provides a great signpost not only to your intentions but to the decisions you make about how you spent your time, your resources.

And finally, this question has been on my heart for the last few years – Dealing with chronic pain, being prayed for, being willing to be prayed for when the answers have not gone the way I’ve wanted, have made me wrestle with this question: “What is the posture toward pain that God is calling me to?” It’s an unsettling, deep and profound question because I have to approach it in honesty and humility. It causes me to “reason together with the Lord” (Isa. 1:18).

Let me summarize -a rule of life is simply a way to stay aligned with what God is calling you to become, not a way to measure what you’ve done. It’s a marker, a signpost. It can include all measure of things. A question, a song, a Scripture, a prayer… Whatever God leads you to! I have found there is no end to the resources out there. I’m reminded of part of St. Patrick’s Breastplate. It would make a great signpost or rule of life.

I arise today
Through the strength of Christ’s birth and His baptism,
Through the strength of His crucifixion and His burial,
Through the strength of His resurrection and His ascension,
Through the strength of His descent for the judgment of doom.

I could say more, but I won’t! Let me leave you with this as you consider a rule of life, and I’m including myself in it.

May it start in us through the song God has sung over us through all our days. May it spring from a place of hunger, and a desire for transformation that can only result in our becoming like Him. May we be resolute in casting off any hindrance, any sin, any relationship that inhibits His sanctifying work in us. May we live out our baptisms every day. From the moment we wake up to the moment we fall asleep may we remember to take our place in His death and in His resurrection – through prayer, through confession, through practicing His presence, through virtue, and through love.

Christmastide Two – The Lord’s Prayer

Our Father, who art in heaven,
Hallowed be thy name.
Thy kingdom come; thy will be done.
On earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day, our daily bread,
And forgive us our sins,
As we forgive those who have sinned against us.
And lead us not into temptation.
But deliver us from evil.
For thine is the kingdom, and the power,
And the glory, forever. Amen.

Father, you have given us the honor of knowing You as Abba, dear Father, and for that we are eternally grateful. We bless Your holy name because at the sound of Your name, the earth rejoices, and the angels bow down. Dear Father, You have given us Your Son – to fulfill Your Kingdom here on earth as it is in heaven. You have given Him to us through His obedience on the Cross, and now through Your Spirit, He dwells in our hearts by faith. Where would we be, Lord, without the reality of Your indwelling grace? Give us what we need, that we might have courage to forgive others as You have forgiven us. Give us power, Lord, to rest and abide in You that we would be delivered from temptation and evil. And may we without ceasing, spend the rest of eternity praising You for Your kingdom, Your power, and Your glory. Amen.

Christmastide Two – Confessional Prayer

Psalm 139:23-24 – ²³ Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! ²⁴ And see if there be any grievous way in me and lead me in the way everlasting!

How do we practice incarnational reality when we struggle with sin? Or when we realize we have made poor choices, or when we know we have withheld grace or forgiveness? I think sometimes our shame over our wrongdoing or sin keeps us distant from God. He’s right there – and the way to affirm that reality is to bring to him all that we need to confess. Remember Paul’s prayer from Ephesians 3 – “that you may be rooted and grounded in love, [and that you] may… know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God!” (Eph. 3:17, 19).

Start by centering your heart in God’s presence… Give thanks to Him that you do not need to hide anything from him. Affirm that He is faithful and good, and his mercy and grace are “new every morning.” The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases, his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is thy faithfulness” (Lam. 3:22-23).

Now let Him begin the process of searching your heart. Are there ways you have not honored Christ this week? Where were your thoughts and desires not centered in Him? How have you failed in obedience to Christ?

Then, simply confess specifically what the Holy Spirit is showing you. Don’t rush through this process. Simply rest in God’s presence as He does this.

Now choose to let this go and receive the truth of this passage: “I delight to sit in his shade, and his fruit is sweet to my taste. Let him lead me to the banquet hall and let his banner over me be love”. If you have confessed a stronghold of fear or complacency receive Christ’s forgiveness for you. Remember – “He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness” (1 John 1:9).

And finally commit this confession to the Lord. As you rest in his grace and mercy ask Him how to walk this out. Ask for the supernatural power of His Spirit to give you what you need to move forward. Thank Him that you “have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer [you] who live, but Christ lives in [you]” (Gal. 2:20).

Psalm 103:1-5 – Bless the LORD, O my soul, and all that is within me, bless his holy name! ² Bless the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits, ³ who forgives all your iniquity, who heals all your diseases, ⁴ who redeems your life from the pit, who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy, ⁵ who satisfies you with good so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.

Christmastide Two Lectio Divina – Incarnational Reality

For as many of you were who were baptized in Christ, have put on Christ. (Gal 3:27 ESV)

I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. (Gal 2:20 ESV)

To them God chose to make known how great among the Gentiles are the riches of the glory of this mystery, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory. (Col 1:27 ESV)

Step One – Read these passages slowly, attentively. Allow yourself to be taken in by the words – pay attention to any word or phrase that strikes you in the passage. (If you haven’t studied these verses, you may find this first reading will stir observation questions in you – such as who, what when, where, how).

Step Two – Read it again. Meditate and reflect on the passage. What is it in your life that needs to hear that word or phrase? Sit in silence for a time, attending to the thoughts, images and impressions that begin to come to you. Turn that into prayer.

Step Three – What is God saying to you? What do you begin to feel called to?

Step Four – How does God want you to live this passage out? What are you resolved to do?

Lectio Quote – Incarnational Reality

In Him we become fully human. In Him, we begin to do His works. This involves incarnation, a descent of the Spirit into our deepest beings and lives. In Him, the will, the intellect, imagination, feeling and sensory being are hallowed and enlivened. We begin to fully live, to participate in the eternal, the immutable, the indestructible.
Leanne Payne, The Healing Presence, 11.

You can go through the same steps that we use for Lectio Divina for Scripture, or simply take some time and read this quote slowly and express your gratitude that we bear the Spirit of Christ in us. Christ is with us, and He is within us, by the power of the Holy Spirit. I highly recommend reading Leanne Payne here.

Christmastide Two- Incarnational Reality

…that they may all be one, just as you, Father are in me, and I in you, that they also may be in us, so that the world may believe that you have sent me….I in them and you in me, that they may become perfectly one, – and he repeats the phrase from verse 21 – so that the world may know that you sent me and loved them even as you loved me. (John 17:21-23).

“The central miracle asserted by Christians, is the Incarnation” C. S. Lewis wrote in Miracles. “Every other miracle prepared for this, or exhibited this, or resulted from this” … This incarnation, this mystery is rooted in the belief that God assumed our nature, our human flesh in the form of Jesus Christ, the Son of God; and in so doing, He took on our nature, and then becoming like us in all things but sin. But even with this incredible miracle there is even yet a deeper truth and reality. This is what Jesus declared in the passage above. And this is what the apostle Paul captured in this passage: “Christ in us, the hope of glory.” (Col. 1:27).

“Incarnational Reality” is at the heart of the gospel. This is the language Leanne Payne used in writing about the Christian life. It’s difficult to write about – because it’s unlike any other tenet of faith held by other religions but more so, because it is not a mystery that we can ever really understand with our intellect. – It must be grasped with our hearts, our souls, our inward parts. This understanding of personhood is at the heart of everything Leanne Payne wrote about or ministered into.

The Incarnation itself, the coming of God in flesh expresses just how deeply we are loved by our God. But this? Words are inadequate as we stop and realize that it was not enough that Christ died for our sins – we are now in-dwelt by a Holy God. That life in us, the Spirit of God, is something we can now treasure as our greatest joy.

It is Christ in me which is the only hope I have of conquering my fears, or sins, or lies. This calls for highest praise. That praise is lifted up and out of our souls, spirits and mouths to a transcendent God who stooped down to take on not only our flesh, but our sin as well.

When you go on to read Paul’s letters you realize that he has radically changed the way we see and know “incarnation.” It wasn’t too long ago when I realized that Paul took the events of Christ’s life, and our lives in Him and made it theology. Actually, even more than that – he made it the language of our Christian formation. With this in mind, go back through his letters and realize this for yourself. “I have been crucified with Christ, nevertheless I live. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me.” (Gal. 2:20). Stop there. Think hard about that. Let that truth sink into your inward parts! What an awesome but somewhat terrifying truth. The Creator of all that is, lives in me. The One who died for me, lives in my soul, spirit, my everything. The proper response to this is awe, glory, gratitude. We can abide in him, remain in him, dwell with him, live in him. This is the Christian faith. This and no other.

Paul took the events of Christ’s life, and our lives in Him and made it the language of our Christian formation.

“When Christians say the Christ-life is in them, they do not mean simply something mental or moral. When they speak of being “in Christ”, this is not simply a way of saying that they are thinking about Christ or copying Him. They mean that Christ is actually operating through them; that the whole mass of Christians are the physical organism through which Christ acts – that we are His fingers and muscles, the cells of His body.” (Mere Christianity)

Leanne Payne called this incarnational reality. This is how she puts it: In Him we become fully human. In Him, we begin to do His works. This involves incarnation, a descent of the Spirit into our deepest beings and lives. In Him, the will, the intellect, imagination, feeling and sensory being are hallowed and enlivened. We begin to fully live, to participate in the eternal, the immutable, the indestructible. (The Healing Presence).

With all my heart I think this is the key to Christian formation. We talk a lot about Christlikeness and how certain practices or disciplines help us to do that – to become like Christ. There is truth here, without doubt. But I wonder if it’s going about it the wrong way round. We pick the slow lane in traffic to build a habit that helps us be more patient. (This is probably not the best example for me, because I cannot even imagine doing this!) Good habits though, may well indeed produce good character, which hopefully leads us to become more like Christ. Yet I think there is a better way. I think that Christlikeness emerges from our “inward parts” as we abide in Him, as we make room in our hearts for this incredible reality. Christ invites us to join Him into the life, the unity he shared with his Father. (John 17:21-23)

Do you not know that all of us who have been baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into his death? We were buried therefore with him by baptism into death, in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glory of the Father, we too might walk in newness of life.
Romans 6:3-4

Many of you probably remember Corrie Ten Boom. She was a Christian who was captured during World War II and spent the remaining years of the war in a prisoner of war camp. She was there with her sister, and her sister was relentlessly hounded by and finally killed by the guards of that camp. Corrie survived. She spent many years after the way, writing and speaking about forgiveness. On one such occasion, she had finished speaking about forgiveness and a man approached her. He stepped up onto the stage and told her he had been one of those guards. He asked her for her forgiveness. She froze and was overtaken by hate. This man had been one of her sister’s torturers. There was absolutely no way she could forgive him. But she stopped, prayed a prayer that went like this, “Lord, you know there is no way I can forgive this man. If he is to be forgiven it must be You forgiving him through me.” She felt a deep peace as she reached her hands out to this man. The only way to describe this is to say that it was through Christ in her that gave her the power to forgive.

This is incarnational reality, and it can only really occur as a result of our union with Christ. And by trusting in the work of the Holy Spirit in us that reality becomes more and more a part of our lives – not just our faith or our Christian life – but the whole of who we are – mind, soul, body, and strength! This becomes the cry of our hearts then – Another lives in me!

I think a good way to look at our becoming in Christ is this: it is the incarnational forming of our whole beings into the image of God effecting the full scope of Christ’s birth, life, death, and resurrection through the work of the Holy Spirit. Another lives in me.

* Sigh. Not an easy process though, is it? Discipleship is hard –being transformed is not for the faint of heart. Our life in him is certainly a life we must cultivate – through the power of the Holy Spirit in and through us. All of God is readily available to us in the midst of our pain or sin or temptation. In the grip of fear, or anger, or any temptation, we can pause, take a moment, and remember this reality – that Christ lives in me – and then as C.S. Lewis said –“we listen to that other voice (not the voice of our sinful desires…) and we take that other point of view; we let that other larger, stronger, quieter life come flowing in.” (Mere Christianity)

Leanne used the term hamewith to describe this life in Christ. It is an old Scottish word that means “home within.” What an incredible picture this paints of incarnational reality. Where would we be without that life within? We might still be forgiven, we might still become good people, we might still do what Jesus did (WDJD), but nothing compares to the knowledge that it is Christ in us, who is our hope of glory. It is Christ within that cries out in praise and worship. Hallelujah!